Ehhm...Shirt?

Okay, Kirsten likes my shirt...that's all


bye

the "Give the kids in india some money blues"

Okay, this all happend friday 11 may 2007.
I wake up, it's raining like hell.
Get myself a cup of coffee, and some breakfast.
Pack my guitarbag, you know tuner, "The b*llshit free chord book" and the guitar.
2 Pm i cycle to Johan's house, we play some "Day of Defeat", 3:30 PM Johan packs is guitarbag, and we head to market.
We arrive there, and we park our bikes.
Johan was a bit scared, so i got my guitar first, i lay down the guitarbag for people to throw money in..
Johan get's his guitar, i start of with a Oasis song *clink* €1 within the first 30 seconds!!
30 minutes later, i'm playing a blues improv with Johan, and some galls aproach us, they asked if we wanted to stand next to their "Cakestand"XD, so...we did.
And just as we walk there, it starts to rain, so we had shelter.
Well, 1 hour later we go back to our old place...and we start to improvise on a blues song, just singing weird stuff.
that made us €5,-...At the end of the day we had €25,-.
We had to do this for school, to make money for india, those galls baked cakes to raise money.
Now i want to see the faces of the guy's at school, when we come with a can (yes, a can) of money.

Oh and Johan and i are planning to do this next friday, but for ourselves.

Hurray for coffee!

Well, since yesterday we have a coffeemachine in school, and that's great news for me, and the metalheads i somethimes hang out with,they're our "Rival" band, but we are friends.
So, that's what happenend yesterday, nothing new.

Today, we had "Sportdag" with school, wich basicly means you go out and sport the whole schoolday with your class.
So i arrive at 8:45 Am at school, with Lise...Asks if she want Chocolate milk, well she refused (and it's only €0,30, i'd just give it to her if she wanted :p ).
I go inside the school, and grab myself a cup of coffee, and go back to Lise again.
Well, the rest of the gang arives, we head out to the NSC sportsfield with a group of, nearly 12 people, terrorizing Nijkerk :p .
We arive, sport and go back to cycle back home.
Well i cycled in the middle of Lise and Kirsten, and they started...well, kinda sensually touching me....turns out they just where to tired to cycle and hanged on me!
We laughed it off though, i'd let them do it...just because they practically don't weigh anything, and i'm a gentleman...sort off.
That was my day till now,
Oh! and tomorrow no school :(

Fuck it

You know what? just fuck it.
I'll never go further then just being "Sweet" or a shoulder to cry on.
But i feel just fine with being that, making someone else feel better, makes me feel better.
I've alway's had strong empathy, and now with Lise, everytime she feels down i feel at the verge of breaking down, everytime she's happy, i feel euphoric...i just want her to feel happy, for my own selfish me.
That reality, really...i'm just fooling myself into thinking i make a chance, or i want her to feel happy, for her to feel happy, but that is'nt the deal.
I just want me to be happy, at least that's how i think about myself at this moment.

Long live the instant messenger!

Well, so we have holliday, no school , no Kirsten or Lise.
So this is where MSN comes in! :D
Had a pretty long conversation with Kirsten about Zodiac signs, turns out that Taurus (Me) and Libra (Kirsten) make the perfect match, well we don't really believe in it so, we'll both see how it works out.
I'll make her another poem soon, just for the sake of it.
Well, to the MSN part, we had that conversation on MSN and she put "Jeroen love you" in her name, jokingly she asked "You wanna put Kirsten, love you! in your name", so i did that.
Well it might be jokingly, but i keep hearing her say "I love you" or "You are sweet" from her, i can't escape from cloud 9 , if you know what i mean :p .

PS: If you got the time read this : http://www.subkamran.com/sa/sa%20-%20bruiser.pdf it's kind of a blog, but it's damn great! and it's real too.

Nothing special

Well, yesterday was my birthday i'm 14 now, so i have to keep my ID with me at all times -_-'.
I'll probably forget it.
I don't feel older though.
My parents helped me pay for my new guitar :D, It's an Epiphone ES335 i'll try to post a picture of it soon.
Yesterday Lise asked me if i could lend her a English book (for school), so i'll take them to her after the holiday.
Now i'm off to my friend.
I'll try to post another entry at the end of the day if i have something interresting to say.

Life it still can be good, with 3 little words.

Okay, i started the day with packing my guitar, and backpack for school, ate something and stepped on my bycycle to meet op with Kirsten and Lise, and i've recently discoverd, that i'm still in love with Lise, not just "I like her a lot".
Well, we cycled, talked a bit nothing special.
Arived at school, put my guitar in the teachers room, and gone off to class.
4 hours later, the holliday begins , so we all hugged eachother and wished eachother a good holliday.I grabbed my guitar and cycled with Johan to his place.
We arrived there, watched some TV played the guitar.
2 hours later (3:15 Pm ) we arrived at school again for bandpractice.
So we had some damn great fun during practice!
I cycled home with Dennis (the drummer) and arrived home, to BBQ.
TOTALY EXHAUSTED!
So, after the BBQ i put on MSN.
And there she was, Lise was online.
I talked to her, and said her new shoes and shirt looked great on her! (they really did!)
Then she said "You are sweet" well, it might sound weird but that made my day!
I was imeadiatly full of energy.
So, now i'm sitting here, with a cup of Irish Coffee, counting the minutes till i see her again. (And that's in about 1 week :'( , i can't wait that long ).

PS: I'ts my birthday tomorrow, i'm pretty excited, for nothing :\
PPSS: Anyone heard of The Levellers? They're great!

Pefrectly normal day.

Well, i just came home from school, cycled together with Lise and Kirsten,that does'nt mather right now though.
Some of you may know, that i was really badly in love with Lise.
Well, today she did her hair different, and oh she was beautiful!
During Dutch she came sitting next to me, i could've passed out right there

Try and catch the wind.

You ever heard Irish Descendants - Catch the wind ?
If you did'nt hear it, you should.
It explains exactly what i'm doing ; Falling in love, and try to get lucky, without doing mutch about it, just trying to catch the wind.

Always keep on hoping.

Well, things have gone as usual with K, "Hi" "how are you doing" you know the deal.
Nothing special, i think there might be a little hope for me, as she said "I like you,but more as a friend" and not "I like you as a friend", little difference but it leaves me a little hope.

The killer

Yeah folks, life is'nt really good at all times.
"I like you, but more as a friend"
How many times does a man have to hear that, before he gets lucky?
Well, we imideatly had fun afterwards, my friend Nils asked me, if he should ask her what she thinks of me.
Well, i first said to Kirsten "Tell him, that you think i'm a jerk and such.".
So okay, Nils asks.
Inmediate shock, i laughed my arse off.

Chuting in, took her off guard.

Okay, there's this girl i like : Kirsten , she's adorable, brown eyes and i doubt there's anyone more naive and caring than her.
So, i wrote her a poem, she just got it, like 10 minutes ago.
She was caught speechless, i'll keep you guys updated.

A introduction

Hello, this is my first entry.
My name is Jeroen van den Ham, but my friends call me Hammetje most of the time.
I play the guitar, go to the shooting range and play in a band.
I like different kinds of music, not your average teenagers taste.
Well that's my introduction.