Fuck it

You know what? just fuck it.
I'll never go further then just being "Sweet" or a shoulder to cry on.
But i feel just fine with being that, making someone else feel better, makes me feel better.
I've alway's had strong empathy, and now with Lise, everytime she feels down i feel at the verge of breaking down, everytime she's happy, i feel euphoric...i just want her to feel happy, for my own selfish me.
That reality, really...i'm just fooling myself into thinking i make a chance, or i want her to feel happy, for her to feel happy, but that is'nt the deal.
I just want me to be happy, at least that's how i think about myself at this moment.